Week Twenty Three - Up the Mountain

So, this is the first week that I actually didn't write anything down to share with you guys. But I am gonna write a little bit about Song of Solomon Chapter 2 (I would recommend reading it quick because I'm not gonna type all of it out :-p ) and how I feel like it was written just for me right now.

I only have 4 full more days left here in Kansas City. I am sad, excited, happy, and nervous all at the same time. Verse 3 talks about the maiden (the main girl in the book) sitting in Jesus' shade, tasting just a little bit of who He is. I feel like that is where I was before FITN. Then in verses 4 and 5 He brings her to the banqueting table. This for me, was my internship. 6 months of just sitting at His feet, learning and talking about Him 24/7. But then in verses 10-13, He talks about calling her to come away with Him up the mountains. She has to face her fears. 

Man, I am so scared to go home. I really am. My old lifestyle, my old self is there waiting for me, calling my name and I really honestly want nothing to do with it. But Matthew 26:41 says "Keept watch and pray, so that you will not give in to temptation. For the spirit is willing, but the body is weak." 

Yeah, I am willing but I am going to have to work sooo hard and pray that I will not fall back into it. 

So am I gonna go with Jesus up the mountains? Or am I going to give up, like the maiden does in this chapter, and stay behind in the shade. I don't want to give up, I really don't. I have to learn to trust and obey Him and realize that He isn't going to leave me half way up this mountain of going home.

There's a lot more in this chapter that is so good, but that's the basics of it. I fell in love with this book when I read and studied this chapter. If you go on mikebickle.org, he does a whole teaching on Song of Solomon, taking a few verses at a time and going through them in detailed, easy to understand ways. I think this is what I'm going to study over the summer. I think at least every girl should study it, because it is written in our language :)